chapter 34 paradise betrayed
In horror-stricken moments I descried what I had done,
No sight before my hungry gaze would ever give the fee,
The thirty silver pieces I had scattered with my words-
Only they could light the way through fog and set me free.
Lit by the glow worm of betrayal; judged by elfin eyes,
I stumbled in a cobweb maze not knowing where I faced,
My heart still felt aghast dismay at questions I had laid;
By trust my happiness could live, by fear was it erased.
Oh, ashes of these memories, my love had cast from me;
'twas all that I could do to bid my courage pay the fee-
Striations on the path I trod, new journeys did decree.
Seven times I blinked my eyes, and still my love was gone,
I sipped the bitter tea of pain and rued enchanted glade,
Let darkness be my sentinel! Let magic grow in me,
Enfabled was my memory, I dared not let it fade.
Netted thoughts I veiled about me, fending off the void-
Too wise, too late, I knew my fate; the curse that I had laid.
Dreaming of my heaven, lost, my anger swelled and grew,
Reminded of the many chances I had tossed away,
Even now I firmed my resolution of the key-
Ashes of these memories I'd kindle in my way!
Maybe chance would come again; I'd hold despair at bay.
No sight before my hungry gaze would ever give the fee,
The thirty silver pieces I had scattered with my words-
Only they could light the way through fog and set me free.
Lit by the glow worm of betrayal; judged by elfin eyes,
I stumbled in a cobweb maze not knowing where I faced,
My heart still felt aghast dismay at questions I had laid;
By trust my happiness could live, by fear was it erased.
Oh, ashes of these memories, my love had cast from me;
'twas all that I could do to bid my courage pay the fee-
Striations on the path I trod, new journeys did decree.
Seven times I blinked my eyes, and still my love was gone,
I sipped the bitter tea of pain and rued enchanted glade,
Let darkness be my sentinel! Let magic grow in me,
Enfabled was my memory, I dared not let it fade.
Netted thoughts I veiled about me, fending off the void-
Too wise, too late, I knew my fate; the curse that I had laid.
Dreaming of my heaven, lost, my anger swelled and grew,
Reminded of the many chances I had tossed away,
Even now I firmed my resolution of the key-
Ashes of these memories I'd kindle in my way!
Maybe chance would come again; I'd hold despair at bay.